This was the picture that summed things up best. How many times I’d thought of this horse picture since I’d moved here. My berlin, my lonely, outrageous, wonderful berlin. I’d always said it was a lonely city, I’d said it since I came here the second time, in 2019. But…

Where I’d Skate And then, when I was almost 31, I decided to take up skateboarding again. When my peers were getting married and having children, I got my latest skateboard, a hybrid board with a skateboard deck and longboard wheels. And this was where I did it. I’d leave…

Today I learned that there exist fleshlights that are moulded to the shape of porn stars. This is 2020 I guess, why do things still surprise me? I saw it on IG, found it somewhere down the deep hole of “exploring”. This is what the social media companies called stealing…

Dec13/20 These were the moments that made life art. It had been a nice brief time with him. First one from the wild here. Picked up at the Ausländerbehörde. An underwhelming time at the Tiergarten, but still chill. A nice first time at his sweet room. Gave me snacks, gave…

Nov23/19 I remember us spending the first real Sunday evening together. Going to Gesundenbrunnen station and buying groceries. Cooking rice and vegetables. Listing to a Bob Marley record while sitting in the semi-dark, what beauty. Making pancakes and eating them with ice cream, him telling me he’d never done that…